You’ve Lost Your Muchness!!!

I have a 1 year old daugh­ter who is the most amaz­ing human I’ve ever known. One of the movies she loves is the new Alice In Won­der­land. We’ve watched it so much that my wife and I can almost recite the entire film. It’s an amaz­ing story of what many of us go through in defin­ing who we are and what we will do with our lives.

There is a scene where The Mad Hat­ter (played by Johnny Depp) talks to Alice about the change in her since the last time she was there. He says to her, “You were much more muchier…you’ve lost your much­ness”. This res­onated with me because at dif­fer­ent times in my life I def­i­nitely lost my muchness…as I’m sure we all have. So try­ing to be thor­ough I won­dered what the dic­tio­nary said about much­ness. Mer­riam Web­ster (www.m-w.com) says this:

Def­i­n­i­tion of MUCHNESS

: the qual­ity or state of being great in quan­tity, extent, or degree

I would like you if you don’t mind to do a quick exer­cise. Think back to the last moment in your life when you really did feel great in quan­tity, extent, or degree. This sim­ply means to remem­ber the time when you thought you could do any­thing and noth­ing could stop you. When was the last time you did any of these fol­low­ing things?
1. You did some­thing out of the box or even dar­ing.
2. You did some­thing that was just for YOU and no one else.
3. You fol­lowed your gut even when oth­ers around you told you not to do it because even the idea of what you pro­posed froze THEM in fear.

If it has been a while since you did one or any of these things it’s time to real­ize that your much­ness is in ques­tion. Your “much­ness” gets dim­mer and dim­mer every time you don’t fol­low your heart. Every time to cower to the sta­tus quo your much­ness fades. You must rekin­dle it and know that no mat­ter what you’ve been through and no mat­ter where you are right now you can get your much­ness back…trust me, almost all of mine was com­pletely gone and then the turn around came with a vengeance and now it’s back!!!

Start to ask your­self ques­tions that force you to think about regain­ing your much­ness. Ques­tions like, “If money and people’s opin­ions weren’t an issue at all and I could do any­thing in this whole world for the rest of my life what would it be?” Another good ques­tion to ask is, “Are there any dreams I had that I didn’t pur­sue due to my own fear or the fear and expec­ta­tions of oth­ers?” And lastly, “While grow­ing up, did I accept some­one else’s def­i­n­i­tion of me that wasn’t true what I knew deep down I was capa­ble of…and now I’m liv­ing out their def­i­n­i­tion of me?” The answer to these ques­tions are some of the steps to your free­dom of liv­ing a life with pas­sion and filled with much­ness. After answer­ing these ques­tions start mak­ing plans to move in the direc­tion you’ve always wanted to go and your much­ness will start being much more muchier almost immediately.

Quick example…in this indus­try have you been lis­ten­ing to the cri­tiques of oth­ers say­ing you’ll never make it in film, tv, com­mer­cials, mod­el­ing etc? Have you been shrink­ing back accept­ing what oth­ers define you as? If so…it’s time to get your much­ness back and be who you were cre­ated to be. You need to remind your­self every­day just how much muchier you are. As you do this you may have days of dis­ap­point­ment or dis­cour­age­ment but trust that even on those days your much­ness can shine through the dark­est of those days.

I know this is very Dis­ney of me to be pump­ing us all up like this but I really believe now more than ever that liv­ing our dreams is just a mat­ter of remem­ber­ing what our dreams are, believ­ing they can hap­pen and envi­sion­ing your­self liv­ing those dreams at least once a day.

Reclaim your much­ness and become as much as you’ve ever been.

YOUR Next Level

I was talk­ing to this friend about frus­tra­tions in this indus­try. Things like, “I’m not being sent out for what every­one else is audi­tion­ing for,” and “Why do I hear of all these other peo­ple book­ing and I’m not.” All of these things my friend was say­ing were very famil­iar to me since they have come out of my mouth before (mul­ti­ple times).
As we con­tin­ued to talk I asked a series of questions…“What are you doing to pre­pare?” “Are you com­mu­ni­cat­ing these things to your agent?” “What do you see as your strengths you can work with and weak­nesses you can improve on?” The response was inter­est­ing. Each ques­tion was answered by an excuse of why they couldn’t think of an answer or why that didn’t apply to them. The end­ing answer was this, “I just know I’m ready to go to the next level and do every­thing that every­one else is doing. I just don’t get the chance. After my trip (a 2 month trip out of the coun­try), I told my agent I was ready. But, now all they keep ask­ing me is, ‘where are you tak­ing classes?’ It’s so frus­trat­ing that they won’t just trust me and send me out. I know I didn’t book much before I left for 2 months but come on give me a shot. I think I may just need another agent.“
Many times we think we are get­ting focused on our goals but we are really focus­ing on other peo­ple reach­ing goals that are sim­i­lar to our own. We for­get that EVERY goal has a process or jour­ney to achiev­ing it. Yes…you may feel ready to go to the next level but you have to make sure it’s YOUR next level. If you com­pare your­self to any­one else in any area of life you are going to be mis­er­able because you can always find some­thing they have that makes you jeal­ous. Yes…you are right in say­ing that your heart is telling you that you are ready for the next level because it sees every­one doing what you are des­tined to do. You must how­ever be hon­est with your­self about what YOUR next level is.

Their next level might be book­ing a Den­zel Wash­ing­ton film. Your next level might be need­ing to take classes. Just because your next level at this moment isn’t the same as their next level at this moment doesn’t mean that you won’t get to where they are. It just means that you are at dif­fer­ent place on your jour­ney. I can promise you that if you talk to the per­son you are being jeal­ous of you will find that they went through the same grow­ing pains that you are going through. They at one time were going to the next level of, tak­ing more classes…and now look at them!

If you don’t go ahead and jump into YOUR next level at this moment…your future next lev­els are get­ting fur­ther and fur­ther away. Stop putting off what you think is a small step in hopes that you will be able to skip it and just move on to the big step. You will real­ize that once you get to step up on the big step you’ve been focus­ing on, you’ll look back and real­ize that it was made up of a ridicu­lous amount of tiny lit­tle steps.

Be at peace and know that you actu­ally have some­where to grow. Now is the time to focus on grow­ing and going to your next level. You can’t skip lev­els and expect to be at the place you’ve always dreamed of. We always dream of end result that we want. How­ever, our lovely minds some­times for­get to include all the work and steps it takes to get to that end result.

Remem­ber, you are not fail­ing by tak­ing the small step in front of you that leads to your next level. You only fail if you decide not to take the step. Start mov­ing and know that each step you take is build­ing your char­ac­ter to be able to hold you where your tal­ent is tak­ing you.

Rethinking Gifts

This morn­ing I was think­ing about some­thing my act­ing coach and dear friend, Crys­tal Car­son, said to me. “Every gift you have inside of you is well worth the world see­ing.” Your tal­ent, heart, per­son­al­ity and pas­sion are your gifts that if not seen by the world become secrets kept inside you which trag­i­cally haunt you as the decay from the lack of use.
A gift isn’t a gift unless it’s given. Each of us must do an inven­tory of our God given gifts and tal­ents to specif­i­cally iden­tify which of those tal­ents are not being used or ‘given’ to oth­ers. Once we iden­tify the ones not being used we must ask our­selves, “Why is this gift not being given?” BE HONEST with your­self. Is it because you still have a sub-conscience wound from child­hood involv­ing some­one mak­ing fun of your gift? Is it because no one val­i­dated it as you grew up so it was just sim­ply never in your mind as some­thing that should have your atten­tion? What­ever the rea­son, find it and oblit­er­ate it. For me, the thoughts I had keep­ing from using my gifts came from my mid­dle school and high school days. All my gifts ever got me back then were deten­tion, dis­ci­pli­nary action and the occas­sional butt kick’n for being a smart aleck. But once I changed my mind­set, God blessed these gifts to bring peo­ple joy and laugh­ter as well as bring­ing my fam­ily finan­cial bless­ing too. So what use to impede my growth, is now the very thing that is accel­er­at­ing it.
Allow your heart to be turned (like Darth Vader back from the dark side) to real­ize that your gifts are NEEDED by those around you. You must dras­ti­cally change your mind­set on the gifts that are inside of you to real­ize their worth is far more than you have ever even thought of given them credit for. And when I say, “worth” I mean that in two ways. First, the potency of how your gifts can affect oth­ers. Sec­ond, the mon­e­tary worth of how much peo­ple would pay to see and/or expe­ri­ence your gift.
What thoughts come to your mind when I tell you that your gift can bring in more than enough income to sup­port your entire fam­ily to be able to live a lifestyle that you have yet to only dream about? Most peo­ple think things like, “yeah right!” or “your gift might do that, but mine is so small that it couldn’t bring in that much.” My answer to that kind of think­ing is once again a quote from Henry Ford. “Whether a man thinks he can or can not, he is right.” Your own thought process of what you and your gifts are worth are the only thing keep­ing you from the great­ness you know you are des­tined for.
Here’s a story I heard about a study that was done:
A com­pany put an ad in the paper ask­ing for a man­ager who could man­age 8–10 employ­ees, do reports and quar­terly bud­gets as well as set and man­age depart­ment goals for the year. Salary range was $40k-$50k. They received over 500 resumes. They ran the EXACT same ad chang­ing noth­ing except for the salary range which was changed to $250k-$300k. They only received 4…yes four…resumes. Which ad would you have sent your resume to? Think of how lit­tle we think of our­selves. We know we can accom­plish the same tasks that oth­ers are doing but we judge them as worth $200k less just because it’s us…ridiculous!
We need a huge gift to bet­ter our lives this Christ­mas. That gift – To start real­iz­ing that all the tal­ents God put inside of us, if let out and given away to oth­ers, can change lives…starting with our own.

Rest NOT Relent

Know­ing the dif­fer­ence between these two (rest & relent) is amaz­ingly pow­er­ful in help­ing us reach our des­tiny. The more we under­stand the dif­fer­ence and allow our­selves to live in that truth the more things hap­pen for the good in our lives.
Ok, so I know I’m intense and that I’m dri­ven towards my goals pretty dras­ti­cally. There is one per­son who takes my class who told me that just being around me wears them out some­times because I’m so dri­ven that it seems like I’m dri­ving for all of us. That drive has been par­tially healthy and has helped me achieve some things that I’m really happy about and proud of.
But, I have for most of my life felt as if there was a lit­tle ran­dom angel wait­ing by a switch that would laugh­ingly flip said switch stop­ping or stalling my move­ment towards my des­tiny if I took a break to rest or catch my breathe. I’ve been so afraid to take breaks, to not sub­mit for every pos­si­ble job I see, afraid to not stay up late to look for the “late” post­ing and be the first to find it and sub­mit. Lit­er­ally think­ing in my mind, “I can’t rest until I reach my des­tiny…” (ok i admit it…looking back it seems a lit­tle obses­sive and fear dri­ven, I’m fix­ing that!)
Here’s a con­ver­sa­tion with a friend just a cou­ple of days ago. “Dude you look tired, have you been get­ting much rest at all lately?” I replied with a proud resound, “nope, got to much to do, to much to accom­plish and to much money I gotta make…don’t have time to rest.” His response, “Ok…(with inter­est­ing look on his face)…well remem­ber, you’re really not the one your suc­cess depends on any­way. God blesses every­thing you touch so don’t stress so much. He’ll bless stuff you’ve already touched while you rest now.” (or some­thing to that effect, that’s what I got out of it any­way). After get­ting in the car I thought to myself…”why am I proud and almost boast­ing about not resting…that seems ridicu­lously stupid?”
When I got home I looked up the word rest on dictonary.com and rest means mul­ti­ple things that were listed: 1.the refresh­ing quiet or repose of sleep: a good night’s rest.2.refreshing ease or inac­tiv­ity after exer­tion or labor: to allow an hour for rest.3.relief or free­dom, espe­cially from any­thing that wea­ries, trou­bles, or disturbs.4.a period or inter­val of inac­tiv­ity, repose, soli­tude, or tran­quil­lity: to go away for a rest.5.mental or spir­i­tual calm; tran­quil­lity. So I think to myself…”what kind of stu­pid rea­sons do I have to not do this? I’m think­ing that all I want to do now is rest.” I started think­ing of all the def­i­n­i­tions in my own mind that have kept me from rest­ing. One of the biggest was that I felt like when I wasn’t mov­ing and check­ing and prep­ping and prac­tic­ing and push­ing that I was giv­ing up or slack­ing on reach­ing my dreams. Which to me, has always been unacceptable.
So, that led me to look up the word relent. BOOM!!! All of the sud­den I real­ized that wires were crossed and that I had in my own mind had a com­pletely wrong def­i­n­i­tion on some­thing that was specif­i­cally designed to help me.
Relent means: to soften in feel­ing, tem­per, or deter­mi­na­tion (thanks dictionary.com). No where in my heart has there ever been giv­ing up, soft­en­ing, tem­per­ing, or low­er­ing of deter­mi­na­tion. I real­ized that I had either been dooped or dooped myself with this crazy think­ing that rest­ing IS relent­ing. (for those of you who have never thought like this…please excuse this madness…again, I’m fix­ing it).
I finally got the wires uncrossed and real­ized these cou­ple of key points that already in that last few days have changed me drastically.
1 ~ Rest is some­thing that God gave us because He wants us to be able to recoup from all the hard work and toil (to use an old school term) that we do to reach our dreams. He also wants us to look back at all our hard work to be grate­ful for all we’ve accom­plished. One of the things that usu­ally hap­pens in rest is that we see just how far we’ve grown and come. Then it dawned on me…”duh, even He took a day that He offi­cially called a ‘Day of Rest’. How bad can rest be if He’s the one who started it?”
2 ~ What kind of warped view do I have to have of God. To think He’s up there hav­ing one of his angels stand­ing next to the switch that pow­ers this roller coaster of life just wait­ing for me to take a break to rest so He can turn it off. As if to hang me upside down on the loopy part of the roller coaster He’s call­ing angels over, “Hey guys, come look at Dave…what a goof…he took a break and wham I hung him out to dry…HAHAHA!” (In James Earl Jones or Mor­gan Free­man voice of course). Just ridicu­lous! I’m not going to miss out on some­thing huge or be pun­ished just because I chose to take a break.
3 ~ The mind­set of the Eric Lidell char­ac­ter in the film Char­i­ots of Fire needs to be my mind­set of how God thinks of me and what I do. In the film when his overly reli­gious sis­ter tried to talk him out of run­ning in the next days Olympic race (for reli­gious rea­sons) he said, “But God made me fast, and when I run I feel his plea­sure.” WOW, what a huge rev­e­la­tion that is. No mat­ter what I’m doing in my jour­ney to reach my destiny…even resting..if I remem­ber that God is smil­ing down on me and tak­ing plea­sure in what I’m doing, all the pres­sure goes away. It causes the entire pic­ture in my head to change of what hap­pens when I rest.
Rest can and should become a wel­comed, enjoy­able time of know­ing that we are fol­low­ing the lead of our maker in reflect­ing, refresh­ing and refo­cus­ing for the things to come. Take time to rest and it will be eas­ier to never relent.
I now choose to rest and choose to not relent because they truly are two totally dif­fer­ent things.

To Push or Not To Push…

There are two totally dif­fer­ent types of push­ing for­ward in life and in our careers. Here is my expe­ri­ence with both of them.
First we’ll talk about the “bad” pushing.
It is VERY easy to let but­ter­flies start fly­ing around in your stom­ach if you haven’t audi­tioned or booked any­thing in a while. It also is pretty nerve-racking to get harsh cri­tiques or word that cer­tain deci­sion mak­ers don’t want to see you for projects. When any amount of time goes by with­out a tan­gi­ble result of what we want (ie book­ing a gig or two) we have a choice to make. In that very moment when the thoughts of doubt, fear, anx­i­ety or worry come here’s the choice most of us make…me included.
We give those thoughts per­mis­sion to open the emo­tional doors of all their coun­ter­parts. This allows, frus­tra­tion, fear, doubt, worry and espe­cially para­noia to have a play­time on the jun­gle gym of our minds and hearts.
For me per­son­ally, it sparks me to search for audi­tions online search­ing through over 30 sites and sub­mit­ting for roles that I don’t even fit the cat­e­gory of. I think, “I’ll be so good they’ll rewrite the script and char­ac­ter break­down just for me”…like a mad man. Then, I’ll call or email my agent to see if there is any­thing even close to my cat­e­gory I can be sub­mit­ted on (like they actu­ally didn’t think already think to do that). Then after all of that I’ll con­tact friends and see if there is any­thing they know of, heard of, read of or heard some­one speak of that I might fit to be sub­mit­ted on.
After a day of liv­ing in this fran­tic explo­sion of ner­vous, para­noid behav­ior I’m so worn out that it’s hard for me to be even the slight­est bit ener­gized to live my life out­side the industry.
Some peo­ple may read the above and think, “Well, all that isn’t that bad. You need to work on find­ing avenues for your career to grow. How is that “bad pushing”.
HERE’S THE KEY…The activ­i­ties and tasks of search­ing and sub­mit­ting are not what make it “bad push­ing”. It’s the thought process and heart con­di­tion behind it that makes it bad. It’s lis­ten­ing to the voice of fear in us that says, “the rea­son you’re not busy is because you are not enough.” This makes every search or sub­mis­sion be a bur­den not a joy. Lis­ten­ing to that neg­a­tiv­ity brings a fran­tic fear of lack, the fear of poverty and the fear of pub­lic opin­ion of our lack of suc­cess. Any and all action from this point is based out of des­per­a­tion. It cre­ates the poi­son thought that what you want is being unfairly held from you. This causes you to decide that you will get it no mat­ter what it takes. Once you adopt that mind­set you for­get about peo­ple and the rela­tion­ships in and out of the indus­try that make doing what we do worth while. And, let’s be hon­est, no one wants to work with some­one like that. Thus, BAD PUSHING.
Good push­ing is sim­ply doing all that I men­tioned above but based on the under­stand­ing of who you are and what you were made for. Tak­ing action based on what you have to offer, not based on what is being kept from you. Decid­ing that no fear, worry or anx­i­ety is allowed to be a part of your life and/or career is what empow­ers you to take action in this mind­set. The truth is there’s plenty to go around and NO ONE can stop or slow your career (except you). You were made for great­ness and there are peo­ple wait­ing to expe­ri­ence your gift that will bring them joy, free­dom and laughter.
It’s time to real­ize that all the “obsta­cles” that have been keep­ing you from suc­cess were given the power to do so by you. Take the power back and know that your dreams are wait­ing for you.
God is not keep­ing any­thing from you. He’s lay­ing things out in front of you call­ing you to move out of the shack of fear and into the land of your dreams. Live this out by remind­ing your­self every­day that you are enough and that all you need is in you now. “Whether a per­son thinks he can or can not, he is right.” ~ Henry Ford

Highs and Lows from Statements and Questions

Some of you may know that I was blessed with (seriously…I mean com­pletely given and blessed with) a trip to LA to meet my agent for the first time face to face and try my hand at see­ing what things are like out there in this industry.
I can hon­estly say that I wasn’t ner­vous but I did have the occa­sional neg­a­tive ques­tion pop into my head to try to bring me down before and dur­ing the trip. Ques­tions like…”what if you go out there and make a fool of your­self?” “What if they laugh you out of the city?” “What if you get dis­cov­ered and your career blows up imme­di­ately?” (That last one isn’t neg­a­tive but will show you if fear is in you about your suc­cess and not only your failure).
Well I’m happy to say that all went well with my agent and the cast­ing direc­tors I audi­tioned for gave me great reviews. At a work­shop a few LA actors asked me if I was teach­ing any­where because they would love to work with me. One cast­ing direc­tor gave excit­ing feed­back and encour­aged me that I am def­i­nitely doing what I’m called to do. I stayed with a dear friend, Dale Basescu, who is one of the great­est inspi­ra­tions I’ve ever known. He encour­aged me and poured into me the entire time I was there; being gra­cious with a heart to see me suc­ceed. Every aspect of the trip was amaz­ing and the things I heard and expe­ri­enced excited me to come back to ATL at another level.
I came back to ATL on an amaz­ing high ready to take the city by storm. After being back for a month I real­ized that is the last thing that hap­pened. I found myself sur­rounded by peo­ple with ‘inter­est­ing’ things to say about even the trip I took out there. Snide remarks like, “oh no, your one of those ‘big­time’ LA stuck up guys now huh?” And, “Well, we’ll see what hap­pens now that your back,” and “every­one who comes back from there just goes down hill.” Almost every­thing said was in jok­ing and at the time I was too excited to let it bring me down.
However, after a month of hardly audi­tion­ing and no book­ings those jok­ing words started ring­ing in my ears and replaced the great­ness that once echoed in me as I left LA. I have since been car­ry­ing an over­whelm­ing heav­i­ness that I just couldn’t shake. More ques­tions like, “what if I was wrong to go out there?” and “what if the LA trip threw me off my game?” have been ring­ing in my ears mak­ing it hard to focus on any­thing else.
However, tonight I came to a rev­e­la­tion as I read and prayed most of the night for this heav­i­ness to leave and joy to return. We must know the things in us that trig­ger our spi­ral down­ward or soar­ing upward. I real­ized that one of my trig­gers is los­ing peo­ple close to me. Because I am a peo­ple per­son (and pos­si­bly because of some things my ther­a­pist and I need to talk about) the thought of being sep­a­rated from those I love by my future suc­cess trig­gered a sub-conscience bur­den of the fear of loss. Which then made me pull back my expec­ta­tions, efforts and vision. I then chose to accept all things that were spo­ken that jus­ti­fied the pos­si­bil­ity of me not achiev­ing my dreams.
I must say that this last month has not been fun emo­tion­ally, men­tally or spir­i­tu­ally but has taught me some amaz­ing lessons.
First, there must be a deci­sion made in each of us to con­trol our thought process no mat­ter the cir­cum­stances around us. I read tonight from the book, “Awaken the Giant Within” by Tony Rob­bins that, “You must be in a deter­mined state in order to suc­ceed.” Any­thing that takes us out of that deter­mined state must be rec­og­nized and thrown away imme­di­ately. We can not allow it to fes­ter and grow AT ALL! Know that the great­ness God has put in you will for­ever carry you to your des­tiny IF you choose to LET IT. Always con­trol the answers to every ques­tion that pops into your head to lead to achiev­ing your goals not dimin­ish­ing them.
Second, I encour­age each of us to be care­ful what we say to a friend or loved one whether in jok­ing or seri­ous­ness. Words are things! They are alive and they are seeds that grow in the hearts of those who hear them. Even if there is no mal­ice intent or dis­cour­age­ment meant the words spo­ken may become a hur­dle or bar­rier for some­one to strug­gle to over­come. Speak life, encour­age­ment, wis­dom, love and pas­sion on those around you. We always want the seeds we sow to grow life in oth­ers to help them reach their destiny.
At 1am as I fin­ish this, after hours of med­i­tat­ing to get back on track, I am once again focused on my des­tiny and know that it is upon me. It is lit­er­ally show­ing up even as I rest tonight and it draws closer to me. With it comes more joy, plea­sure, pas­sion, excite­ment and an over­whelm­ing desire to help oth­ers feel what I feel when liv­ing the dream I was born with.
I hope this encour­ages you to keep going no mat­ter what. Focus on what makes you feel true joy and attach that joy with what you feel called to and it will show up quickly.
Be encouraged…your des­tiny is within your reach as well.

The Mindset of an Actor

Hello every­one,
So this is my first time ever writ­ing a blog…I hope it speaks to you.
I have found that even though I believe in myself I often hear peo­ple say things that start my mind think­ing in a dif­fer­ent direc­tion.
When things get hard in this indus­try (or any indus­try) many peo­ple share their hard­ships with oth­ers. Most of the time this is fine if it is to get some­thing off their chests or to get encour­age­ment. It becomes a prob­lem when the per­son going through hard­ships starts telling you that YOU will soon feel the pain of the hard­ships they are going through. They have deter­mined that every human on the planet WILL go through what they are going through.
The truth of the mat­ter is they think that way because it’s eas­ier to think hard­ship is mak­ing it’s rounds to hit every­one than it is to think that THEY may be the cause of their own hard­ship. If they are the cause, that would mean they have to change and grow…not many peo­ple like that kind of self cri­tique.
So, my advice to you is sim­ply this. Be deter­mined to keep your­self mov­ing in the direc­tion of your dreams no mat­ter what is hap­pen­ing or what is said around you. Many will tell you that hard­ship will keep you from your des­tiny, but you don’t have to believe any of them. Peo­ple blame numer­ous things for keep­ing them from their des­tiny and they want you to do the same so they will have com­pany in the “not reach­ing my des­tiny” club. In the heart of the per­son of excuses, it’s bet­ter to be stalled with com­pany than fight­ing to move for­ward alone.
The heart of those who reach their des­tiny is one that says, “no mat­ter who is with me to encour­age, or who leaves me due to fear, I will move for­ward towards my des­tiny”.
Stay encour­aged and keep moving.